:: what a day ::

:: Wednesday, December 15, 2004 ::

Hmm, I think I speak for all highschool students when I say finals suck. I studied, and reviewed most of what the teacher told me to, and still all this shit they didn't tell us was on the final. I mean my DE english final was like impossible. 120 college vocab words, grammer, and 6 pages of written. I just wanted to shoot my teacher. I mean add on top of this practice and weight lifting, I'm exhasuted. I used to really like Naples High, but I now see how 2 faced the school is. I'm talking about the adults, its bullshit. I mean use sometimes there in my favor, but thats still not fair. I think the school needs a lot of changing. Also the no tolerance rule for drinking, thats bullshit. Yea, I jacked up, but don't not let me make up my work. I mean I just failed two classes cause of it, and its messing up a lot of things for me. Why don't oyu make me do volunteer hours or something like that, don't ruin me for college and destroy my grades assholes. God I hate that school.

:: kevin 7:30 PM [+] ::
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Hey, its been like 5 months since I wrote in this, but I kinda like writting shit down, so what can I say, its coming back. Damn alots happened over the last few months, lets start with the recent. UF just told me they didn't want me, basically said i was to dumb for them. Well there goes the college I wanted to go to since I was like 8. So whats next, lets say homecoming. I got in some trouble with a few of my friends for going drunk, well i was totally trashed, don't remember a thing, guess it was kinda dumb. Memories. Its almost half way threw my senior year, I'm almost out of this place, I think i might miss it tho, I mean, I grew up here, this is my home. Of course I want the freedom, but, i got a lot of stuff I'm leaving behind. Of course, I got a lot to look forward to. Shit, I got my whole life in front of me. Also my school is pretty gay. Theres to much bullshit, and 90 percent of the kids are fags, I mean just look at em. God, I wish I just understood more. Wrestling. Haha, what a joke. What can I say, it sucks. I mean I just beat this kid that beat me last week, were ranked 1st and 2nd to each other. The only diffrence is he loves wrestling and I hate it. I dunno, I'll write more tommorow.

:: kevin 9:46 PM [+] ::
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Man, I had wrestling practice for the first time yesterday. Wow, it was something else. I don't think wrestling has ever been that hard for me to do. It wasn't that I lost my wrestling ability, I accually felt pretty quick and strong, it was the fact i couldn't breath and my head hurt so bad i could barely see. We'll I just gotta keep going, just gotta get tougher, or just get ready to loose.

Lil w
:: kevin 10:57 PM [+] ::
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Lifes so complecated. I just don't understand why, why half the things that happen do happen. I just wish, I could see why, I could see into that persons eyes. But thats life, you never get to know. Pretty jacked up isn't it

Lil w
:: kevin 10:55 PM [+] ::
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Something that jeff foxworthy said once that I thought was pretty true. He said that all stupid people should have to we ar signs, that way you would never rely on them. Haha so many people in my school would wear one
:: kevin 10:51 PM [+] ::
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Well, I'd like to appologive to all you guys for last post I did, it really twisted fast. Even tho no one is accually reading these right now, I'm gonna continue to post, just to sometimes get out important things. Nothing special happened today tho, it was kinda boring. I gotta write a speech for tommorow but its gonna be easy, but my physics aughh to hard, accualy i'm done i'm making myself bored.

Lil w
:: kevin 3:58 PM [+] ::
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Hey, I'm gonna try to post everyday, thats why I'm writting so much, and I also am very hyper for some reason. Do you ever wonder, what your purpose is. Like have you ever thought thats your here to make a diffrence on someone else. Its kinda scarys you can effect other people.

Lil w
:: kevin 11:26 PM [+] ::
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What is the answer? I don't know what to say, at one moment I feel this, at another I feel that. What do I say, what do I do. Why must I struggle with this thought, why must I carry this feeling. Only time will tell.

Lil w
:: kevin 10:30 PM [+] ::
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Damn feel asleep late last nite, school was way to hard. I gotta finish up on some homework, i hate that stuff. I wanna try to get good grades, they always escaped me, don't get me wrong iget good grades but not 3 A's and a B. I just wanna get that to make my parents happy, life be a lot easier that way. Screw it. Take things as they come, I'm trying to learn that, I just try to ask to many questions sometimes, get to interested and not let myself find out the fun way. I gotta learn, i gotta learn

Lil w
:: kevin 10:19 PM [+] ::
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Hey, yea now its been over a month again since i wrote on this thing, I've just been really busy with work and school. I start wrestling again the 7th of march. I got mixed emotions about it, I miss wrestling, I really do, but I dunno if its gonna be the same anymore. Its been so long, its discouraging, knowing that all my foes have been training for one more year over me. This is my own fault, I dug this hole, I should of trained the whole time. Theres nothing I can do about it now, except enjoy my last few weeks of freedom, then back to practice. Thats gonna be hell, pratice work and school. Anybody else here about the freshmen planing to kill people at lely. Damn, whats amatter with those kids, I've known goths before, there just weird, I never thought they'd try to kill someone. That just shows, everybodys got there breaking point. I think I'm going down to jons today, but I may go down to adams too. Thinking of who else i gotta go see, I gotta go see andrew, hes down from his school. I got a lot to do today, so I'll hit this thing up later, next time i get a chance.

Lil w
:: kevin 11:16 AM [+] ::
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